Exercising doesn't come naturally to me. I'd actually go as far as to say I dislike exercising. I watch the clock during Pilates — playing mind games with myself about how much time has passed and how soon I can go home. I especially dislike cardio, so much so that I once cried, and then had a panic attack when I was made to sprint. I am 30.
I've spent the last few years in a love/hate relationship with my body. I don't mind it when I am fully dressed, but it has been some time since I've felt good in a bikini. Challenging when you live on the beach. I have a very loving husband who honestly believes I look like a supermodel (#blessup), but this year I decided it was more important that I felt that way about myself.
It is kind of strange how much I hate working out, because I am very ambitious and like to succeed. I have no issue working into the night or on weekends to ensure I get my job done, but when it comes to fitness, I am an under-performer. It is also probably worth admitting I've always been the type of person to put everything and everyone before myself. Until 2016. I decided I was sick of feeling shitty about my body. Sick of putting myself last.
Two months into it I had nearly reached my goal and now at three months, I'm even closer. But more than that, I'm happier than I've ever been before. I feel confident, in control and I'm really starting to like what I see in the mirror. Read on to find out the five things I did differently this time around.
I Invested in a Personal Trainer
I'd trained with Jordan before, co-founder of Transform Health, but that was team training. This meant I could slack off. So of course I did. I was also the busiest I have ever been at work and turned to pasta and red wine for comfort. It wasn't the right time and I think I knew that deep down. This time around, I called Jordan and asked if he could train me alone. It costs me more each week, but trust me when I say it is worth every cent. The one-on-one attention is exactly what I needed. Someone to focus on me for a change — provide me with support and encouragement. He texts me a few times a week to ask me what I'm eating, and he also understands my busy lifestyle. He's so encouraging and genuinely cares about my progress. I turn up to training because he's put his trust in me and I've put mine in him. It also helps that he trains models. Read: benchmark.
I Got Military About My Food
Jordan gave me an eating plan, which was pretty standard. Nope, there's no magical solution! Eat fresh food, have smaller portions, snack regularly and minimise alcohol intake. What I realised pretty quickly is if you actually just do this and stick to it, you'll lose weight. I wish it was shinier and more exciting than that, but it isn't. I now prepare all of my snacks on a Sunday night, and order my lunches for the week. The Transform Kitchen service is cheap, healthy and portion controlled. It also means my lunch gets delivered to my desk everyday so I can't get tempted in the food court.
What I Eat on a Typical Day
Thought it might be helpful to explain what I eat, but the key thing I did differently this time around was stick to the plan. I haven't had any treats — no burgers or sweets. The cravings were gone after about seven days. The food I'm eating isn't super life-changing, but I have always been a simple eater. Breakfast is oats made with water and berries, and my morning snack is usually a piece of stone fruit and a herbal tea. I have Transform Kitchen for lunch, and my afternoon snack is capsicum and a boiled egg, dinner is fish/meat and veg. I have two pieces of dark chocolate for dessert because if I didn't I'd probably go insane.
I Stopped Drinking Everyday
This one makes me a little sad. I guess I didn't really realise that I was drinking every day of the week, because I was only having a glass or two of wine with dinner each night and then a handful more on the weekend. But it all adds up. So I cut the nightly glass, which was hard in the first week and now I'm not too fussed. I also stopped drinking at work events. Again, it was only a champagne here and there but, hello, empty calories! Now on Sunday nights, I decide what my two drinking occasions will be for the week. During each occasion, I max out at two red wines. Sometimes three, but I make sure I have a lot of water in between.
I Took Before and After Photos
Seeing the difference is hard. Because it isn't dramatic and it doesn't happen overnight, it can feel like you're being so good but not really getting anywhere. Not true! I took a front and back before picture, and then didn't take another one until the eight week mark. The difference was amazing. I've only lost two kilos but weight loss was never my goal. I wanted to tone and strengthen. I'm a healthy size 10 and have no desire to be anything else. I just want to feel good in my clothes. I highly recommend taking a picture in the same bikini at the beginning, then eight weeks, 12 weeks and 16 weeks in. I'm only halfway but I'm already pretty satisfied so anything on top of what I have achieved is just a bonus!